So. Another nearly week long hiatus. Ouch.
I’m so sorry, readers.
I’ve had a lot on my mind this past week.
A dear friend left for college.
And I’ve been thinking about college myself, for the first time in about 8 years or so.
Having a bit of an existential/career/identity crisis when you’re nearly 24 (or any age, I imagine) isn’t fun. And to think that I did not understand all that when I was teenager and could honestly say I could not relate with people who wanted to “find themselves” because I had no idea what that even meant. (I know what these people mean now!)
“So… what’s the existential/career/identity crisis, Katie?”
Well, I don’t want to live with my parents forever. (But don’t think this means I don’t love them very much. I just want to leave the nest eventually.)
And, if we’re being practical, writing is not a guaranteed paycheck, much less one that pays bills and buys food.
Last week, another friend told me she had changed her major to library science.
*after a quick Google search for definition of library science*: “Ooh! That sounds awesome.”
“So, what is library science, Katie?”
“Library science (often termed library studies or library and information science) is an interdisciplinary or multidisciplinary field that applies the practices, perspectives, and tools of management, information technology, education, and other areas to libraries; the collection, organization, preservation, and dissemination of information resources; and the political economy of information.” ~Wikipedia
It’s the degree that allows you to become a librarian. And by “librarian”, I mean the person who helps you with homework/research, chooses what books get added to the library and which get thrown out, helps people with the internet, etc. Not just the person who puts books away and collects overdue fines.
And I’ve been thinking about going to college for this.
One does not simply decide to go to college, though.
For one thing, time and money.
For another, in order to be a librarian, you have to have a master’s degree. That’s 6 years of college.
And another, I don’t know how to do a lot of this. I’ve never applied for college or taken the SAT or anything like that. I about melted my brain the other morning, trying to find out why there seemed to be no bachelor’s degree in library science.
But the payoff for all this…
Practically speaking, librarian would be a good job because it’s a guaranteed, regular paycheck (and a good-sized one, too).
…And those are all the pros it has going for it at this point. But they are big ones.
The biggest issue I’m struggling with here is the time.
You see, I am almost 24. And I can’t start college this Fall. I may be able to next Fall, if I decide this is what I want and I really push myself, but by the time I get my master’s degree… I’ll be at least 30.
And I was honestly hoping to be a published author by 30 (which I know is not really in my hands past the writing, editing, and submitting).
This may not seem like a big deal to a lot of you. And I get that. A lot of you reader-peeps, at least the ones I know outside of this blog, may still be in high school and are only starting to consider college. Or maybe you are already in college. But not many of you are older than me (I can only name one off the top of my head who is older.)
Age is a scary thing.
Point is… I know how to write a good story. If I go to college for 6 years, I’ll know how to be a librarian, yes, but I will have to give up a fair amount of time that could be spent working toward publication or working a job that doesn’t require extra school.
Making the assumption that I will be at least 30 either way, whether I choose college or writing… is there a reason I should not just focus my efforts on writing for the next 6 years and forget college? Is there a reason I should just go to college and work on writing later?
I want to be a writer more than I want to be a librarian. But librarian is that practical second choice, you know?
I’m not asking for your advice in all this (though you are welcome to give it). This is a decision I, and I alone, need to make.
But your prayers would be appreciated.
And on that note, I have something to tell you.
I’m going on vacation! (I may have already said this before, but I can’t remember.)
What does this have to do with you?
Basically, the blogging is not likely to become more frequent than once a week. I will try to blog at least that, but I will be with family and on the beach and near pools and playing Scrabble with Grandma (we luuuv Scrabble).
Anyway. Just letting you know, so you don’t worry. 😉